Loneliness and being misunderstood
I apologize in advance for how long this is gonna be :
for context : I’m sort of an only child , I have half siblings only and my parents are divorced and I don’t see them much
Both my parents are pretty toxic , my cousins on my mothers side are way older than me and my fathers side live in another city so I don’t see them often
I basically have no one
So I basically turn to my friends , my closest friends live far away from me so I don’t see them ever and I feel very lonely with my school friends
Which is causing me to resent them a bit , I’m no one’s first choice and I feel like an outsider to them cause they all like to do the same things and I don’t , plus in school one of my ex friends is friends with my friends so I’m forced to sit with her and she is weird one day she acts like we’re friends the other she completely ignores me and it’s very hard to not feel lonely when all your friends like to talk to someone who is going out of their way to ignore you , and when I talk about this to my other friends they either give me advice or just act dismissive when I only want my feelings to be understood and validated
I just want to feel like I’m understood for once