Hopelessness..
I just have no energy for anything I love anymore.. I don’t talk to my friends or family in the same way,. I loved fishing and now i can’t fish without hating it and leaving almost immediately., I used to make bird houses and garden beds and I haven’t touched my woodworking tools in a year.. I used to be the model employee, was ranked number one in production and now I’m being threatened with being fired because I just have no fucking ambition for anything..it doesn’t make sense to me man.. I was never like this.. there was no trigger.. I just woke up one day not wanting to keep going.. I’m not suicidal but I want to die if that makes any sense... I go to bed every night hoping I don’t wake up in the morning and very morning I wake up and im pissed that I did..