I miss you but would never text you, because you did make it clear that you want to do nothing with me lol
Dear z’s,
It’s my new nickname for you and you would never know about it.
First of all congratulations on your match , I truly did pray for you to the days leading up to the match. I was so nervous, I had call friends to talk about it without mentioning your name
I know there is no `us’ anymore, probably if I texted you now you’d think I am tryna get you back cuz you’re at your best. But I know deep down you do know that I loved you at your worst and continue to love you at your best. I miss all about you, yesterday I woke up worrying that i have forgotten how you smell, the way your heart beats; the hypnic jerks before you fall asleep or the way your hands felt around me. I talk about you to everyone I know, because maybe I don’t wanna forget you while trying my best to just do that. It’s been years but still memories of our first kiss makes me smile. I would never get to see you, hug you or kiss you again and it still doesn’t sit well with me
I miss you so much even more than I could ever admit
I wish you the best, I truly hope you can find home in someone and maybe feel everything I did ( atleast all the good ones)
But I am going to stop praying for you now , as I said it’s time for me to move on too. Maybe I’ve been stuck on you cuz I still keep praying for you, talking abt you and carrying you everyday. It’s time to put a stop to it
You meant the world to me, maybe you still do.
But I have realized I am not even a small part of your world and it’s time for me to make you smaller in mine
I love you to the moon and back a zillion times!!!!!!💜
and this is the last time I am ever gonna admit that out loud
P.s- I don’t know if this makes sense lol, but I had to type it down and get all my emotions out and did it as it came. I bet there are so many mistakes but I really don’t care