How not to hate my mother
I’m a 23 year old female. And I hate my mother. I don’t want to, but I do. Being around her makes my blood boil. I can feel the resentment burning in my chest when I have to interact with her.
For background, my mother and father divorced when I was about 7. But my father was a very abusive man, and my mother took the brunt of it. This I am sure contributed to the way she raised me or the lack therof.. she was very cold during my childhood.. the most emotionally unavailable person I have ever met to this day. Any time I went to her for advice or help she would shut me down. I never heard “I love you” or “I’m proud of you”. I graduated top of my class with a scholarship but she would simply tell me this is what’s expected of me.
Flash forward to today, she now tries to connect with me, but I just can’t. The thought of it makes me cringe. Is this normal to feel, and how can I get over it? I truly wish I didn’t feel this way.
I have tried to explain to her how I feel about my childhood but she just tells me I need to get over it because “she is the only mother I have”