I feel horrible
My friend got mad at me a blocked me without telling me what was going on. I freaked out and started spamming her and the other friend in the group chat. The other friend responded with “???” And told me to chill. I freaked out and started crashing out on her which is unfair and totally my fault. After she told me she was sick of me and thag I was exhausting and thag I had changed for the worst. And thag my crashouts were annoying to deal with. She said a lot of other hurtful things but I know they were right. Because my mental illness doesn’t give me an excuse to be a terrible person. I used to be so innocent and happy and now I’m an evil broken wreck. I don’t know what to do anymore everyone hates me and I’ve become a bad person. It’s irreparable. I hate this illness and I hate myself o just want it all to end. I apologised and I want to me a better person and I don’t want to hurt anyone around me but I don’t know how to have a better energy or vibe when I’m struggling so much