Off my chest + Ano ba dapat gawin ko?
Problem/Goal:
These past few days, I just feel that ako na lang ' yung nag-cacarry nung relationship, and doing the emotional stuff to make it work. Yung tipong ako ang palaging pinagrarantahan niya ng mga problema niya sa school, pero hindi ko magawa ’yon sa kaniya kasi either busy siya or hindi na niya rereplyan kasi may ginagawa siya, and it will just continue to another topic. Then we had this fight not too long ago; I don't know if this is a big deal sa inyo, pero para sa akin medyo, kase in our anniversary I prepared something for him and all, wala lang, just to make it more special kahit na ldr cineceleb. But ’yon, nakalimutan niya akong batiin, like literally, hindi man lang niya ako binati pabalik nung time na binati ko siya. Na-sad din ako b'cos syempre, sa relasyon kase tlga namin, he's the one who remembers the dates ehh, and I had that hope and anticipation. And not only that, I always help him sa studies niya when he needs help, teach him math, do his parts sa mga group works to lessen the workloads and all, and ang pansin ko lang is don lang sa time na yon humahaba ung convo namin and nothing else, kung may free time man siya, may ginagawa siyang iba. And lastly, the fact na hindi siya nag-I-I love you every night back whenever I say it, 'cuz we usually do say it naman (This part I can somehow understand na busy siya 'cuz he's doing something and ako naman ung unang nakakatulog and all).
Context: So I've been in a relationship with this guy for 2 years and counting, though nag-break kami for a short while and nagkabalikan din (this is because tadhana keeps bringing us together). LDR kami, like, as in luhjet for that span of 2 years, and minsan lang kami nagkikita. Nung first years of the relationship, madalas naman kaming nagkikita since nasa iisang campus lang kami, but in the latter part of the relationship, literal na LDR na. Sa Manila na siya nag-aaral (one of the Big 4) and ako nag-stay sa province.
(This can be one-sided as it is and biased, kase this is based on my own feelings and emotions)
Side Note: I understand naman na he's busy and has almost no time kase apaka dami nilang ginagawa sa school, and ang perfectionist niyang guy especially sa school work. I always choose to understand it naman, and I really do. And I know na I'm not really in his priority, pero dang it, why can't he put a little effort in things just so I can feel na mahal din niya ako the way that I love him ( I know he loves me, pero somehow some of the things he shows are the bare minimum).
So ano ba dapat kong gawin para mabago 'to? Or if you were me, what would you do? Should I wait para may mangyari?
anyways thank you in advance ppls of reddit!!