I hate where I live SO MUCH but I am trapped in place
I live in an extremely boring, culturally deficient, poor part of the US and have for most of my life. I’m completely trapped in place due to my partner’s job, the fact that he does not want to move, and the fact that we both need to provide care to our aging parents (we are in our 40s). My personality is the type that thrives on challenges and novelty, I love learning new languages, trying new things and navigating big cities. It’s like being imprisoned living here when I could be anywhere else. The only truly happy moments of my life were when I lived abroad in Europe and Asia for stints in my 30s. I try SO hard to romanticize my life, to squeeze every drop of entertainment out of this place, but my depression grows and grows here. I had hoped I would outgrow this feeling with time but it only seems to get worse. Just had to vent to someone, I guess.