How do you stop, emotionally?
Hello all! I am 6 mo PP and baby boy has been breastfed since birth. I never expected to pump but due to an unplanned c-section and difficulty positioning baby due to my breast size (J cups) I decided to pump. I don’t make enough now (supply dropped dramatically when I went back to work) and am pumping 16-20oz a day with 5 ppd and we combo feed. Baby gets 2 oz in each bottle (6 bottles/ day) of BM and the rest is formula.
My original goal was 6 months of breastfeeding, but I feel a profound sadness thinking about quitting despite knowing that it would be better for my mental health to not pump. My pumping journey was really, really tough. I ended up passing multiple large blood clots out of both breast’s and had to have a breast biopsy 3 mo pp due to the clots and a suspicious mass (benign thankfully but before the biopsy resulted I really thought I had cancer). I feel like since he had to be combo fed, I failed him. I’m struggling to stop and just need some support. Is the 2 oz enough for him to get any benefits? Idk what to do, do I keep going?