u/Either_Damage8850

Omfg I'm so proud of myself! So like I say all the time I'm like working on what I call my villain era cause like it's a long story but basically I have like childhood trauma that led to me becoming a people pleaser and I have this past because of my inner demons and I'm also trying to own my wrong doings and grow up.

But anyway, I was on fire yesterday! I was mature and adult and set boundaries. And I wasn't an insecure little b*tch about it like I usually am where I cry and spiral and feel bad about myself because I'm afraid of hurting someone's feelings and being too mean either which is huge for me right?

And there were two instances yesterday where I practiced all this right?

So in the first instance I told someone no because of past history and they retaliated but I was mature and protected myself. And I was mad and worried they might hurt me too cuz I'm a woman. But I was okay don't worry.

And then in the next instance people were being little snowflakes in the comment section of one of my posts here ganging up on me being keyboard warriors just because they think I didn't show enough online etiquette for not using paragraphs. It was so stupid and insignificant that I thought it was a troll right? My mistake.

But like I took my time trying not to be a sensitive little btch about it like I usually do and check their profile and it had a deleted post about not being a monster just because they didn't have empathy 🙄 which I thought was a typical troll thing to post on their reddit. Probably a far right maggat or something idk. I try not to judge but it's hard.

So anyway I try to practice self respect and stand up for myself. And people get so worked up lecturing me about being a child and not using paragraphs. Which was so stupid to get worked up about. Like whatever. I thought they were being the stupid babies.

But I didn't feel weak and I checked my sensitivity and just doubled down and stuck to my guns and didn't change or bow down to them and I didn't over explain myself or apologize and just moved the eff on like a mature adult.

I was simply like respect me and I'll respect you and it's such a small insignificant argument let it go and I'll consider your lecturing next time but this time I'm just gonna be myself and do me even if people are babies about it.

Hello. I'm disabled mentally and physically and looking to find myself, a community where I belong, and my soul family. I'm trying to create a little slice of heaven for myself and am looking into homesteading as a possible route for the future with my found soul family. I'm as*xual so i don't plan on finding my soul family or my possible future homesteading lifestyle the traditional way, i.e. through dating, marriage, or doing everything myself with said traditional family. My only living immediate relatives are my aunts (sisters) and my brother all of which are disabled either mentally or because of old age. I have an "adopted dad" who's in a wheelchair and two "adopted sisters" one of which is also disabled. I also have a godson. Now I know my ideas/dreams are far fetched, out there, idealist and visionary and a little crazy but most dreams are I suppose and I believe in magic and fairytales and happily ever afters personally. This is the general idea for my Aspiring Homesteading future. My dream is that I'll either win the lottery and buy land in another country with safer and freer politics and rights and hire assistance to do all the homesteading for me as I'm disabled and can't do it all myself if any. Or else the world will find peace and defeat the f*r r*ght p*litics in the world eventually to where I won't have to move and the opportunity and networking and assistance will somehow present itself the more I put myself out there in the community like this reddit community and local neighbors and such etc. Or maybe someone will create a land or country I can be apart of someday and join with my soul family. In any case, I'll need to surround myself with knowledge and start planning and start networking so I can find the appropriate people to help bring my dream to life as I know it will take a village to make come true. I personally believe that where there's a will there's a way and that if I build it they will come. In other words if I start the journey I'll find what's meant to be for me, my soul family, and my dream. Thus why I joined this reddit community and others. To begin the journey, to network, build the basic skills, start planning, to put myself out there and see where it leads me. Because history is being made for better or for worse and things are changing in the world and I want to explore my options and see what's out there. But first I need to know about other countries and there politics and what kind of off grid niche lifestyle I want as there's a lot of options out there. I've looked into tiny houses to boat life to cob houses to life in Canada and in England to life in the woods etc. all I know is that I'm scared of the forests and bumps in the night and what could be out there and I know I want sustainability and a local community close by where they have shops and events we can enjoy. So if anyone has any ideas towards those topics in particular and can let me know what other requirements I'll need for the journey that'd help my Aspiring dreams and planning a lot.