Vulnerable Gaming Post
I was back and forth on writing this post or not but eventually just said screw it. This community seems like a solid one. I'm 35 going through a divorce. I'm back with my parents until I can get back on my feet. I've pretty much lost everything. Family, friends, my 2 cats. Life can get lonely but I'm doing my best to stay positive. I've gone through mental health struggles and battles with addictions. I'm 9 months sober as of yesterday and accomplishments like that keeps me going but the tough part about it is I have no one to share that with. I see all of these posts on social media how gamers meet other gamers online and they become gaming boys or girls for life. I've always been the shy guy online to talk on the mic because I don't want to sound or say anything dumb. Chronic overthinker btw. I have friends that I go out with and have a good time but nothing like shared interests or not minding to just kick back and talk about life. That real friendship connection. I feel like the gaming community are full of passionate people. We game for a reason and although many people have different reasons it's still a passionate one. Idk what to get out of this post tbh I'm just hitting a brick wall and been sitting at my desk for the last 2-3 hours doom scrolling, installing and uninstalling games because idk what to play or do. I just want to game a have a good time. I'm not asking for like best friends here or anything. I guess I'm just using this a platform to vent out to fellow gamers and who knows? Maybe someone here is going through the same thing or similar and maybe this will help them out. Life is good when you really think about it. That's what I try to keep telling myself. I just know life can get better with a group of gaming friends. I'm a big online comp gamer. Marvel Rivals I've been obsessed with again, Fortnite but Zero Build because I'm trash at build. Even Arc Raiders but PvE. I was thinking about trying new co-op games like Dead by Daylight, Phasmophobia and Escape the Backrooms. Games like that. I'd really like to try just to have a good time with gamers at this point. Except WoW or any games like that. Absolutely no patience for those games. I've been a gamer my whole life and also have a huge passion for cinema and wrestling WWE. Alright. I'm going to stop yapping. At this point I'm just mindlessly typing. I'll probably regret posting this 5 minutes from now but thank yall for even reading this if you made it this far. I hope your gaming weekend was a damn good one!