I (21m) want to breakup with my (20f) gf?
So, I honestly don’t even know how to explain this properly, but this is my first relationship. We met in October and became really close around December. At some point I found out that she used to self harm, and I genuinely tried my best to help her get out of that mindset. She did stop for a while too.
Then around February, I started feeling like she had feelings for me, and I got scared. A big part of me felt that if I rejected her, she might fall back into hurting herself again. That’s kind of how we ended up together in March.
But even after that, the self harm tendencies never really went away, and over time it started affecting how I felt in the relationship. I feel guilty even saying this, but I’ve started feeling emotionally drained and suffocated, and I genuinely don’t know if I can continue like this.
What scares me the most is the thought that if I leave, she might do something harmful, but at the same time, if I stay only because of that fear, I know I’ll keep losing myself in this relationship.