medical withdrawal at ut for mental health?
hi- i just finished my sophomore year at UT as a pre-med bio major. i’ve been diagnosed with clinical anxiety/depression/ocd and struggled throughout my life but this past semester has been another story. i previously was a straight a student throughout freshman year and first semester of sophomore year, but due to the severity of my mental health issues i ended up q dropping multiple classes and failing one. i understand that my grades can be salvaged over time but my mental health is something that can’t be. i’ve been extremely suicidal and depressed and have repeated panic attacks to the point that it’s hard for me to even get out of bed. i’ve also been struggling with anorexia for the past couple months and it’s affected me to the point where i was physically unable to attend class because of how weak my body was. i honestly wasn’t telling my parents how bad i was struggling with an eating disorder on top of severe anxiety and depression so i did continue to be enrolled even after things got worse. fast forward to now and i would say that my mental health has gotten progressively worse to the point that i’ve been extremely suicidal and unable to carry on with my normal life. i had planned to take a couple summer classes online to boost my GPA and get ahead in the premed requirements that i had to drop but honestly can’t handle it. i’m heavily considering withdrawing for fall semester just so i can focus on getting better as i’m unable to away from my family and on top of premed course loads. i’m afraid that if i go back i might become even more suicidal or do even worse in my classes and further screw up any hopes of being a doctor. i have been seeing a therapist for a couple months but have found little success and have struggled getting in with a psychiatrist now that things are much worse. i also worry about my friendships at UT along with my own embarrassment of having to admit that i am taking a break because of mental health (which i know is nothing to be ashamed of but it still affects me). i’m just so lost and don’t know whether to try and tough things out and return in the fall to maintain my life there, or to take care of myself here. with how severe my issues my parents are considering an inpatient facility and they want me to take the fall off so i can get better. unfortunately i don’t believe i would be able to fully recover from something this life-altering before august but also don’t want to disappoint my parents or friends. has anyone ever experienced something similar or has any advice? thank you ❤️