please help i need to stop
ive never been diagnosed with dermatillomania and dont know if i need to be, but ive been chronically and SEVERLEY picking my skin since the age of 6. my arms my FACE my shoulders my legs my chest- basically my entire body is COVERED with hundreds of circular scars and fresh open wounds 24/7. i cannot remember a single time where i have stopped for over a month within my entire life, i am 21. the impulse to pick OVERRIDES ALL ELSE. i get excited to pick open wounds and dig SO deep in some wounds they get infected for days and even then, ill PICK AT THE INFECTION for weeks afterwards until if finally let heal by picking at something else. i have been frequently called disgusting, gross, dirty/ told i look like i shoot up or im on meth do to my wounds. im highly anxious, have a hard time eating, and my self image is in the fucking gutter. im tired of this controlling my life and im looking for help. if you have GOOD advice for a situation like mine please tell me. id love to talk to someone who has experienced this level of self injury and horrible impulse control in accordance to ripping my own fucking skin off everyday of my fucking life. anyways thanks for reading if you did read, and if you want proof of my wounds and scars id happily show those as well. just please help me