i’m freaking out
so i recently got diagnosed with vaginismus and every since i have fallen into such a deep hole, i already had many mental problems and this has completely taken away from any sense of hope for a future. not to sound insensitive, this is just how my mind works but i truly do not see a point in living where i cannot have the quality of life “normal” people do. im really losing it lol. but okay i just had a hymenectomy about 2 months ago (where they cut out the extra hymen tissue) i was born with a microperforate hymen which is basically just an almost invisible opening, it was all blocked. and i went back to the gyno for a checkup and when she tried to insert a q tip i had craaaaazy pain it felt very sharp. she immediately said she’s almost certain i have vaginismus and referred me to a specialist that actually diagnosed me with it. i cant put anything up there so im pretty sure i have a more severe case? i’m 18 and going to college in the fall which was supposed to be the time i get to truly be me. my childhood has been pretty rough. ive hated myself so deeply my whole life and even just that ounce of hope that i can just maybe finally be normal in that setting kept me going. but now i have nothing. i want to be able to date and be a normal teenage girl (and i know there’s people that can see past the sexual aspect but i just WANT TO BE NORMAL and atleast have the option to) this is getting pretty long so ill wrap it up what im really getting at is how long will pelvic floor therapy take to actually work? is this actually truly 100% cureable? will it take over a year?