I wish my sister disappeared.
I hate that I'm saying this but I genuinely hate her. She's ruined my life. I can rarely see my mother because she lives there. I can't be in the same room as her. I have to lock all my stuff away in case she steals it all and ruins it. She used my toothbrush to clean the toilet because I called her out for stealing my stuff. She ruins my clothes. She steals my money. She hits me. She hits my brother. She hits my non-verbal half brother (5). She runs away all the time. She calls me a bitch. She ruins mine and my siblings' stuff. She never takes accountability. She makes up stuff about me and my parents to get us in trouble. She accused my dad of abusing her. That could've gotten me taken away from the one normal person in my family, the only person that is on my side. I can't do anything about it either because she's mentally ill (I won't specify how bc we don't know yet). I only made this account because I have nowhere else to go with this and I just need someone to know who won't judge me. If my parents find this I'm fucked, but I honestly don't care anymore. She still visits my house whenever she wants despite the fact she had to move to my mother's because she was too dangerous at mine. I don't get a say in whether she stays or goes because I "don't understand" (NOBODY FUCKING TELLS ME), and my grandmother (who's also abused by my sister) doesn't want her to be "segregated" so she lets her stay. I don't feel safe in my own house when she's here. I don't feel safe at school if she's around. She's made up rumours about me at school that could've ruined my reputation, saying I stole her friends and abused her (when she bullies me). They didn't work but holy shit that could've ruined my school life. I don't know what to do anymore because I just can't keep doing this, I can't keep pretending everything is fine and just push through this bullshit. I have other problems to worry about, I can't keep walking on eggshells. I'm not even gonna proofread this, I just hope nobody in my real life finds this bc they'll know it's me. This probably isn't even as big of a problem as I think it is but wtv :/