Will I always feel like my friends hate me?
I’ve been struggling with this for years and I’m getting so sick of it. No amount of asking for reassurance that my friends don’t hate me helps. I’ve waited it out, but it always comes back. Am I just going to feel like this forever? Do I have to deal with this constant anxiety that everyone hates me for the rest of my life?
I genuinely can’t comprehend people *liking* my presence unless I’m giving them something (ex attention/gifts/etc.) in return and it makes being around people exhausting. I feel like I have to justify just existing nearby because I’m just that unpleasant to be around.
Even when people invite me to things I don’t get it. I’m being so honest when I say that I do not understand how my presence is enjoyable to people. It’s an alien concept to me that has never made sense.
I’m just really upset because it feels like nothing I do will ever get rid of this anxiety. I’ve been on Lexapro before (for a different source of anxiety) but that did nothing to this. Idk what to do. I hate feeling like this.