u/Electrical_Lawyer710

So back in freshman year, a girl from a prestigious school transferred to our not-so-prestigious (but still private) school. During the first few months, we weren’t that close, but we talked sometimes. Everything changed after I greeted her on her birthday. After that, we became really close to the point where we’d call and text each other every day just to gossip or play Roblox and Valorant. We were basically each other’s closest friend from the opposite gender, and eventually our whole class started assuming there was something going on between us.

Fast forward to sophomore year, we were still in the same class together. She got her own friend group while I got mine. We were still close, but not as close as we were back in freshman year.

Then before finals, while reviewing for exams, I overheard her and her seatmate talking about how she started talking to her failed talking stage from last year again. I didn’t hear the full reason why, but honestly, it hurt. In my mind, I thought it was probably better to distance myself so her old talking stage wouldn’t assume there was something between us.

During finals week, she approached me during recess while I was reviewing and asked what the lessons were for the next test. I was about to answer until I saw her talking stage outside the classroom door. For some reason, I didn’t want him seeing us together, so I made up an excuse and went back to my seat. I kept doing that several times until she finally noticed and asked why I’d been avoiding her.

That’s when I told her that I overheard her talking about reconnecting with her failed talking stage, and I distanced myself because I didn’t want to cause misunderstandings. Around that time, I also realized I had feelings for her.

Then she told me there was actually nothing going on between them anymore and that they were mostly just talking about school. After that, she suddenly said:

“I heard from your friend that you like me.”

I was shocked, but I admitted that I did like her, though I thought I had already moved on after overhearing their conversation.

Then she admitted something too — she said she also had feelings for me back in freshman year.

And honestly, until now, I still think about it sometimes.

So did we both like each other at the wrong time, or were we just too scared to ruin the friendship?

Back in freshman year, a girl from a prestigious school transferred to our school, and after I greeted her on her birthday, we unexpectedly became really close. We’d call, text, and play Roblox or Valorant together almost every day, and eventually our classmates started assuming there was something between us.

By sophomore year, we were still close, but not like before since we both had our own friend groups already. Then before finals week, I overheard her talking about reconnecting with her old failed talking stage. I didn’t hear the full context, but it hurt enough for me to slowly distance myself because I didn’t want to cause misunderstandings. Eventually, she noticed and confronted me about why I was avoiding her. That’s when I admitted I liked her. What surprised me most was when she admitted she used to like me too back in freshman year. Now we still talk sometimes, but not as much as before. So sometimes I still wonder: Did we both like each other at the wrong time, or were we just too scared to ruin the friendship?

So back when I was in 9th grade, there was this new student from a prestigious school who got into our school through a scholarship. During the first few months, we weren’t really that close. But then, in one subject, we had a group task in Music where we had to dance to a song. While they were practicing, him and his group were dancing, and some of us found it funny (not in a bullying way).

I took a video of him and his group, and a few days later, his birthday was coming up. I decided to take one of his pictures from the video I recorded during Music, crop it, and place it in a simple “Happy Birthday” video. I sent it to him at exactly 12 AM.

The day after his birthday, we started chatting late at night, mostly talking about school drama. We would also tell each other about our problems and rant to each other. After that, I guess we got closer and closer to the point where the entire class assumed we were together. But both of us just called each other best friends or “hg” and “hb” (yes, I’m a girl and he’s a boy). We didn’t really mind what people said because we didn’t think much of it.

Time passed.

I told him that I had a crush on someone from another class, and he asked who it was, so I told him. He was supportive. Then, not on the same day, he told me that he had started liking a girl from another class too. Of course, I was happy for him because we were supportive of each other.

Later on, he told me that he confessed to her, and she admitted she liked him back as well. They didn’t become official that day, but they became each other’s talking stage. After he told me that through chat, we slowly started chatting and calling less. Even in school, we interacted less until 10th grade.

Surprisingly, we ended up in the same class again. Because of that, we got closer again, I guess. He had this new friend group, though 4 of his friends were also my classmates back in 7th and 8th grade. Since we got closer again, his friend group started noticing how close we were, and one of his friends teased us so much to the point where I’d get really annoyed whenever he did it.

Then, around 3 months before school ended (I don’t wanna say the exact month because I don’t want people from my class seeing this and recognizing it), I started developing this strange feeling toward my hb. I honestly don’t know how it started, but it just happened. And because I’m stupid, I told the same friend who teased us so much about it.

For context, I was already over my crush from 9th grade. But me and my bbf didn’t really chat and call like we used to in 9th grade anymore, only sometimes.

Another period of time passed, still during 10th grade.

We became seatmates, though not in the same row. I’m right-handed, and he’s left-handed, so he sat on my right side. His seatmate was this gay boy who happened to be best friends with his old talking stage from 9th grade.

One day, while waiting for class to start, they suddenly started talking, and I overheard that they had started talking again. What I DIDN’T hear was the part where they were only talking to clear things up and not because they liked each other again.

At that time, I still had mild feelings for him, so I thought maybe I should stop talking to him again since he was reconnecting with his old talking stage. Around that same time, we also stopped chatting as much, so I decided to stop too.

Exams were coming up as well. On the first day of exams, I was studying alone. When the day ended and it was dismissal time, he asked me something (I honestly can’t remember what), but when I answered, I guess I sort of dodged his question and sounded a little annoyed. Since then, he became concerned about my sudden change in mood.

That same night, around 11 PM, he asked me if I wanted to play an online game with him, but I declined and said I had to study. But unlike how I used to chat him before, like:

“OH SORRY I CAN’T PLAY WITH YOU LATER, I HAVE TO STUDYYY :(“

It became more like:

“Sorry, I don’t really want to play right now. I have to study.”

Then progressively, my chats with him became colder.

The next day, one of his friends approached me and asked why I was avoiding him. I told his friend what I had overheard about him talking to his old talking stage again and that maybe I should stop talking to him to avoid misunderstandings between them.

AND HIS FRIEND TOLD HIM ABOUT IT.

The next day, I sat near the air conditioning because our classroom was hot, and a lot of students usually stayed there to cool off. But then I noticed that he and his friends kept going near my spot while I was studying.

Later, his friend told me, “Do you notice that he’s been staying near the air conditioning a lot?”

I said yes.

Then he told me, “You know he’s doing that because he’s trying to get your attention and wondering why you’re avoiding him.”

His friend suggested that I should just talk to him so we could clear things up. I didn’t want to make the first move though, so I told him to tell my hb to message me first.

And he did.

At 9 PM, he chatted:

“Hey, I noticed you’ve gotten colder and more distant lately. May I ask why?”

I replied:

“I think it’s better if we talk face to face. How about tomorrow after exams?”

He said okay.

On the last day of exams during dismissal, most of our classmates were still inside the classroom because we had a project to do. Me and him were in the corner of the classroom talking.

He started the conversation with:

“I just want to hear your side of the story. Why are you avoiding me lately?”

I told him:

“I’ve been avoiding you ever since I heard that you and your old talking stage started talking again.”

He explained:

“We were only talking to clear things up. We don’t like each other anymore.”

I nodded.

Then he suddenly said:

“I heard you’re avoiding me because you like me?”

I didn’t want to directly answer, so I told him to ask his friend if it was true. He asked his friend, came back to me, and double-checked.

So I finally admitted:

“I did like you, but then I realized it’s probably better if we just stay best friends because I don’t want to ruin our friendship.”

Then he admitted:

“You know, I liked you too since 9th grade. But ever since you told me you liked someone from another class, I ended up moving on from you.”

And just like that, the conversation ended.

In March, since school was about to end, we were chatting again. As a joke, I told him I was transferring to another school, and he sort of believed it.

Then he asked me when I got rid of my mixed feelings for him. I told him a date and asked why he was asking. He said he was just curious.

At the same time, I was using my iPad watching a show on Amazon Prime. When I looked back at my phone, I saw that he deleted a message.

I asked what it was about.

He said:

“It’s nothing. Don’t think too much about it.”

But I got curious, so I kept asking. Then he told me to check his Instagram note.

I asked:

“What’s it about?”

And he replied:

“The signs… and that I was already too late.”

I was confused and asked:

“Signs for what? Signs that you like me again?”

And he replied:

“I guess you could say that.”

AND GUESS WHAT? MY FEELINGS FOR HIM CAME BACK TOO, EVEN BEFORE HE SAID THAT. THEY WERE JUST REALLY CONFUSING.

So yeah, we both admitted that we liked each other again, but at the same time, we both said we didn’t think there would ever really be a chance for us because we already saw each other as “best friends.”

I talked to my friend about it too, and he keeps manifesting that we’ll somehow end up together in 11th grade and that we’re just waiting for the “plot.”

Fast forward to this April.

I started playing Valorant again because it suddenly became popular again at school. My friends were playing too. One day after cleaning our classroom, me and my friends played Valorant in the computer room at school (don’t worry, we had permission).

I guess he noticed that I started playing again because a few days later, he messaged me asking if I wanted to play with him.

I said sure.

He asked for my username, I added him, and we started playing from around 10 PM to 2 AM almost every night for a week until it stopped.

Then after around 2 weeks, we started playing together again. His friends started teasing us again because we kept playing late at night together.

Then last week, I posted an IG story saying that I finally reached Platinum in Valorant.

He replied:

“Congrats on reaching Platinum. Sorry I haven’t played with you in a while. I was grinding to Diamond with my friends.”

I replied:

“I understand. Also, congrats on reaching Diamond too.”

(He had literally reached Diamond that same day.)

The end.

Bonus:

I have a secret account that only 2 people know about: him and one other person. I repost some crush-related stuff there because I think I still like him.

And I guess he sees my reposts because he likes some of them.

I don’t want to assume if he feels the same way again or not… but whatever.