Why is this happening?
There’s this fanfic I used to love so much that it would stay on my mind 24/7. The author is incredibly talented—she’s actually my role model when it comes to writing. But ever since I started writing my own fanfic, I barely read fanfics anymore. My all-time favorite fic updated a few days ago, yet I still couldn’t bring myself to finish it.
I realized it’s because I feel envious. I keep comparing my writing to hers, and the worst part is that she’s genuinely so much better than me. I hate how it feels like everyone else is more talented at something I love doing so deeply. And because of that, I’ve started doubting myself.
I know that writing fanfic is supposed to be fun, but sometimes I couldn't help feeling this way and I really hate it so much. I'm sorry.