I didn’t feel this way 10 years ago
I just turned 30 and I think my self esteem is the worst it’s ever been. I was so optimistic at 20 that even though I didn’t have the teen love story we always hear about I would find love in my own time. I was never worried about those types of “milestones” like losing my virginity or whatever bc I assumed those things would happen naturally. Now here I am, first kiss at 27 with a guy at a club who I never saw again. Still a virgin. Never been on a single date let alone in a relationship.
Now I feel so far behind anyone else my age. I missed my chance and now everyone my age is settling down. Dating apps make me want to tear my hair out. Even if I could get a date with someone I was attracted to, I’m too insecure about my inexperience and the judgement I’ll face.
I’m so scared I’ll feel like this for another 10 years.
Is there any hope at all?