Anyone else feel like this is so much fucking work (mini-rant)
Hi lovely and beautiful folks I made a throwaway bc my boss knows my main reddit lol. I internally feel genderfluid and genderqueer, and I experience dysphoria on my non agab days. But I hate makeup and I don't enjoy gender presentation in general. I just wish i could do nothing to my face and body, and just go to work in comfortable clothes and have people innately understand what I'm going for. It doesn't help that my body matches my agab very very well and all my attempts to present differently are always frustrating and disappointing and it's so much goddamn effort. I generally just present neutrally but am perceived as my agab no matter what even when I try not to be so I end up just convincing myself that it isn't worth it. Anybody else feel this way? and if so, how do you deal with it? Bc I've essentially given up on gender presentation in general which i feel like is probably not the right solution. I just don't want to have to care about how people see me in order to "pass"