Am I depressed, burnt out or just complaining?
Hi Reddit, I’m posting here because I don’t know who else to talk to.
I little context, I have struggled with anxiety, overthinking and depression for almost 12 years on to varying degrees. In August last year I moved to a new city for work after graduating. I was very fortunate to get a job straight after graduating so I feel silly for complaining about it but I’m so exhausted all the time, I work 11 hour days during the week, with a shorter day on a Friday, and have weekends off, but I just feel like I have no time to myself, I leave the house at 6:30 and don’t get off work until 7pm, I try to go to the gym but if I don’t go before work I get so tired after that I just want to go home. I feel like I’m getting burnt out but idk if it’s that or if I’m just lazy and this is just what real life is.
Since January my mental health has taken a nose dive, just having no motivation or desire to do anything, feeling stressed and anxious all the time, hopeless about the future and just wishing time away.
I’ve stopped seeing friends and doing things, because I feel like I’m just not present and have nothing to talk about. I’ll just bedrot and sleep and get upset and I know scrolling on my phone isn’t helping but I don’t have the energy to do anything else.
Anyway I was on the phone with my parents today and was getting upset about work and the feeling of not having much time, and my mum was saying ‘well that’s just life I’m afraid, everyone has to work’ and then started saying how busy they are and brought up my dads health (diagnosed with cancer last year) and now I feel terrible for bringing it up at all and like I’m just complaining when actually this is just life and many people have far bigger things to worry about in their life than I do.
Any advice on how to feel better/make the most of my time/ help with feeling burnt out from work? Or any other advice or insight in general would be helpful.