u/ElyrzV8

idk whats wrong with me. i get off to things that are borderline illegal, mentions of it or whatever and im just constantly thinking about sex, sexual scenarios with people i know or family members and im repulsed by myself. every night all i do is watch porn and after each time i feel so dirty and disgusting, thoughts too loud and im ashamed of myself wishing i could just drown and make the thoughts stop

i cut to distract myself, quiet the noise, and hopefully convince myself to stop but always in the end its useless and the cycle just repeats, over and over and over

im so fucking ashamed and disgusted