u/Embarrassed-Plan-462

My husband (34m) jerks off while I’m gone from the house. I know because I have a nose of a bloodhound for that man (lol) and he’s told me he does. I know it’s weird. I don’t understand why though. I’m ALWAYS a willing participant, if not I’m the one initiating more often than not. He’s told me before that it’s “too much work” to have sex with me sometimes and an “easier clean up” by himself. But I don’t know if that’s it. I feel like he’s not attracted to me and would rather look at porn. I’ve had multiple conversations and have asked before but he shuts down and doesn’t want to talk. Is this a common thing that, I as a woman, just don’t understand?