a disheartened young lawyer in the philippines
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I pursued law school with the main purpose of protecting my family. This stemmed from the fact that we do not come from a well-off background, hence, my family, especially my parents being underestimated by relatives and neighbors. When I became a lawyer, I was more focused on my 8-5 job as it is much demanding, and I thought I don't want to give this up because this job provides me a stable monthly income, plus the perks I have are likewise extended to my senior citizen parents.
I had the chance to defend my mom in a case, which btw I worked hard for, only to lose. Honestly, I felt shattered, I started to doubt my competencies, and have even considered quitting law practice altogether. My insecurities flared up upon seeing my batch mates thriving in their respective law practices and honing their skills, which made me deactivate my social media accounts because I don't wanna harbor envy and resentment. It also came to a point that I had to seek psychiatric help, and was clinically diagnosed with Major Depressive Disorder.
Sometimes, it made me think if I made the wrong decision to pursue law school back then. It made me question whether I have wasted my youth over something that I have already started giving up.