I was diagnosed with BPD for a while and could not keep consistent with the treatment (life has not been easy and i don’t have a supportive family). I just tried to deal with things in a really messy way, could never make relationships last, always felt like I’m a burden to everyone around me my entire life.
I switched to a different psychiatrist and he think I have Bipolar 2 (or Unipolar, still figuring it out), but then again I have no support to get the help I need. I will start earning after a few months. My best friend, and the only person I used to talk to died after I came abroad to study (I live with family here too btw, its not great because they are too religious and constantly make me do things which I do out of obligation though it is everything I stand against). I could not even see him. I started seeing someone and I feel like I am constantly picking fights with him, I cannot even control my impulses anymore.
I am lonely, stressed and reaching a breaking point. I would appreciate any help or advice to survive the next few months so that I can start earning and get medical help. Thanks for reading this!