u/EmbarrassedWonder191

I have thoughts of killing myself, but I can't bring myself to cause physical harm against my body. I've tried cutting myself a few times before, the pain wasn't enjoyable. Am I a coward for not going through with it? I don't want to live the rest of my life knowing that deep down, I'm just scared. It makes me hate myself even more just by thinking about it. I want to fit in so badly with everyone else, but yet I can't bring myself to do it.