u/Embarrassed_Seat9320

Hi fellow people of Reddit👋

I’m just making a post making I’m kinda in a weird/Low point and just am look for genuine connection and conversations. The thing is some days I just don’t have the energy for the conversation, and I’m trying to find people who get that.

My main hobbies are reading, walks or hikes but I’ll try most things once. If you want to share some of yours feel free. I enjoy being at home, I love sitcoms, and am afraid of heights. That’s a little bit about me and idk what else to say.

So if you want someone who can do the small talk but also deep dive into our trauma.. who understands if you go MIA for a few weeks.. I’m your girl.

Hey, I’m sorry if the format isn’t right.. I’ve never posted here before.

I was diagnosed with PTSD among many other things at 12. I’m sure it was due to my mother’s death. ( me and my sister found her when we were home alone) and I just grew up with a very abusive father who ended up signing of his rights.. about a year after my mom passed away.

My foster care experience also caused issues. I ran away from foster homes a lot. Which lead to me staying with Older men in exchange for sex. ..

I got pregnant and suffered from PPD, which was left untreated. Then two years later I suffered from a psychosis episode that last several weeks. ( this episode caused a lot of issues for me, to the point.. I couldn’t wear clothes I wore during the time, being outside scared me. Anything I did prior to the episode, or during.. became almost tainted?

I’m 26 now and I feel nothing, I can acknowledge I went through things, but my brain refuses to do more it feels I’m alive, but there is nothing GOOD in my brain. I felt like I could manage life still at least to an extent..but the last 3 years have done a number on me and I’m scared to exist.

Just going to the store or being around others feels like something I don’t deserve, does anyone else feel this way?

How did you make the step to get help?

It’s the weekend, and I’m a homebody so here I am.

I’m wanting to try and make some friends, so I thought I’d make a post. Because let’s face it making friends as an adult, is hard lol. Some of my interest are music, shows (especially new girl and the rookie) i love spending time outside and being in the water.

I also spend a lot of time reading, mostly trashy romance lol.

I’m not too concerned about sharing similar interest, if we vibe, we vibe. Well if that’s enough to get your attention feel free to message me.