i am 19(f), i don't have a interest in doing anything in life, i am not talking "oh i am feeling stuck", i am saying i don't have a passion to do anything, its been like this for a long time but mostly in the back of my mind, however recently after some things i have realised, i don't want anything no career, no experiences, no anything. i don't even want friends (trust me i have a few i don't know how) i genuinely don't care what happens to me but recently it has been affecting my family. i am a burden to them and a complete waste of space. i am not saying this is how i feel, i am saying this is how it is. they don't realise this yet. I just want everything to be over, everyday before going to sleep. i just wish i don't wake up tomorrow. Recently i have been trying to find ways to end it, but make it look natural. i don't even care about doing that. On a whim, i am capable of jumping off my balcony. i want to be gone before my family realises that i am a waste of space and something to be ashamed of (obv. they love me but i know in future it will become hard to). i just want to rot in bed doing nothing. i know i am aware i am a pathetic human being. i just don't care about that to. I AM JUST UTTERLY UNINTERESTED IN LIVING.
p.s. if anyone wants, i can tell some things that have RUINED my life because of this attitude.