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So I’m not 100% sure about this but I’m 29 now but I’m having OCD about the fact that I used to have weird taboo sexual fantasies as a 14 - 15 year old that I didn’t think were problematic. But now as a 29 year old it fills be with pure dread that I used to think like this and it makes me very uncomfortable in retrospect and makes me wish i could erase these memories. Has anyone had a similar experience? Do we grow out of weird things that we once thought were normal or didn’t question?

Taking sertraline right now and about to talk to a doctor about potentially increasing my dosage. Does anyone have a good idea about how you should feel when you're at the correct dose? Just wondering if anyone has fluctuated their dose and how it felt in an intense OCD episode?