My gf 32F and I 32F had a weird fight and I feel bad, did I mess up 6 months in?
Last week my girlfriend and I started to talk about how I wanted some more quality time as we’ve both been really busy lately, and it started out okay but the conversation started to drag on and I started to freak out and spiral about lots of tiny things, reading them as signs that she didn’t want to spend time with me, while she started to freak out that she’s bad and can’t do anything right. So we had this drawn out conflict over half the week (we did have good moments in between cuddling and eating food together). Then, she got mad at me and expressed that she felt I was being unfair and I suddenly realized I was spiraling because of residual fear from my past experience with my previous relationship who lied to me and messed me around a lot. So I realized that and apologized and things seem to be okay now, we have special plans together tomorrow.
Why do I feel so worried that I messed it up? Can something like this ruin a relationship in one go? I really love my girlfriend and this is the best relationship I’ve ever been in, I want to be a good partner to her.