guys please try name chanting (naam jap), my condition was similar to lemar, i lost hope after trying everything and being hopeless was better than forming new hope and getting betrayed everytime, after naam jap , everything feels less sticky, i can finally breath
it's like when even hope feels like a trap coz you have been burned so many times by believing so hope itself started to feel like the enemy.
I looked at the choice between trying harder and just... stopping. And stopping felt more honest because I was done pretending I had more in me than I did.
I have tried every other way like trying-to-believe-harder way and manufacturing-faith way but eventually you just feel like a fraud on top of everything else.
So I said the Name even when I didn't feel anything.Nothing dramatic happened but an hour later or so I noticed something that the heavy thing I'd been carrying was sitting a little further away than before.
I can't prove anything, I'm just saying that If even reading something like this makes you flinch because you've heard too many promises.
You Don't have to believe this. Seriously. Don't take my word for it. Just try it and see what's the worst that can happen now ? what have u got to loose