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I had to put my beautiful boy down last night. He had hemangiosarcoma. He was just diagnosed Tuesday and he went down hill pretty fast. As I’m writing this I feel anger, sadness, impotence because I couldn’t save him. He was 10 yes but it still wasn’t fair to see him deteriorating like that. He tried to keep himself alive but I could tell he couldn’t anymore his body was giving out. He was always so strong. I rescued him when he was on the streets looking for food with his back legs injured when he was 2. He was my first rescue. He taught me that dogs will change with love and attention. He went from aggressive and distrusting to love able and trusting. 8 years wasn’t enough. I need him more. My son (14) has taken it really rough my husband too. We are all devastated . It’s the first night without him and I feel numb but also like I want to leave with him. Idk how I will survive without him. I have 2 other dogs my other one is 9 and I’m terrified of losing her to cancer too. When will this feeling go away? I don’t think I can do this. I want him back.

On May 5, my pitbull was diagnosed with hemangiosarcoma. Is 10 years old. He was a rescue. We found him at a Wawa. His legs were not very stable, suspecting that he probably got hit by a car. We took him in and gave him a loving home and two dog siblings. It’s almost exactly 8 years and he was diagnosed. My form of coping is spending time with him. I haven’t gone to the gym. I’ve cut hours at work. I spent most of the time crying. I get this awful anxiety. I can’t see my life without him. My other two dogs are really feeling it.

He seems fine at times, but my vet did say that she didn’t wanna give him more than till the end of the week, but my husband is adamant that he can bring him back to life with all these natural remedies. If it was up to me completely, I would have taken him in this Friday because I hate how he’s suffering. He whines a lot. He can’t stay in one place. It’s hard for him to settle. As I mention his legs are not stable, so the mass is heavy on him and he drags his legs sometimes. He’s also very nauseous and eating just a little bit. I do see him trying to work through everything, but I hate to see it. I don’t want to be home with him like this, but I also don’t want to leave him alone, knowing that he only has a few days. My husband wants me to give him seven days to see if he gets better. But I’ve read so many posts that yes he could get better but ultimately there’s a fate when it comes to this cancer.

I can’t cope with this. I feel like I’m having a heart attack. I have two teen boys and I think I’m making it worse by being so emotional. But this dog showed me what it means to rescue a dog.