u/Emergency_Poetry_255

I'm quitting. With all due respect to the people who can believe, the last two years of my life have been hell. This is the period when I started believing. Christianity has made me afraid of the world. Afraid of people, afraid of animals afraid of all creatures And I always feel guilty, no matter why. I think that believing is actually not for me. Thank you for everything and for the lessons, but I cannot continue to grow this way. I love you all.

m17 I notice that I am often very hyperactive when I am around people, like my colleagues. I can say a lot of things without thinking, and I regularly hurt people with this or get into trouble because of it.

I want to change this. I have tried a few times already, but I just can't manage it. I want to be the quiet guy; that is actually who I am. When I lie in bed at night, I can finally be myself without outside influence, and I also want to be able to be myself with outside influence. I want to regain control over myself. How can I best handle this?

Lots of love to anyone who wants to respond, because I regularly get ignored on Reddit.

I quit smoking today after many failed attempts. I can now identify the moments when I fail. Wish me luck.