If I can't get clinically diagnosed, how can I know?
I'M NOT LOOKING FOR A DIAGNOSIS! Just seeing if I sound like an attention seeker or not,
I'm not sure if this is the right tag but anywho.
For the last year or so, I've been struggling with a lot of thoughts and obsessions that REALLYYYY match OCD. I'm always on google trying to find reassurance and certainty, and I always end up in the same place. OCD. I've always thought I had it but now it just seems more obvious than ever. It's like I'm relating to every OCD struggle or symptom I come across, but I don't know if maybe I'm making it up or lying or misunderstanding my own feelings 😣.
So in conclusion, in my heart, I'm like 98% sure I have it, but I don't feel right or comfortable telling that to other people because I don't have a clinical diagnosis, and don't want to seem performative, even though talking about it and opening up just seems so wonderful. Like I need someone to understand my struggles.
I can't really get a clinical diagnosis because my mom doesn't believe I have it and thinks I'm joking about it, and I feel like she doesn't really believe all that much in mental conditions.
I feel like maybe explaining my thoughts and wtvr here would give me better feedback but I'm not sure I want to. 🥲
So like what? Can I say I have it? Do I have the right to say I have it? Do I come off sounding like a bitch?