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Hi all, I notice I love my Vyvanse and don’t really get a “feeling” per se, like it’s def not what one would call a HIGH. BUT from about hours 1-4ish, I feel completely wired. Irritated sort of. Like a busy body, need to keep busy even if it’s not productive at all.
Sometimes I’ll just hyper focus on a book cause I am a book worm but struggle to focus and it feels so good to be able to read for like 30 mins or more at a time. Off my meds, even a good book I usually can’t focus past 15-30 mins max.

The best word I can say though, is wired, and too serious. Sometimes it’s awesome when I have a lot to get done but I don’t feel like “me.” But after the “peak,” I love it. I don’t feel a thing…. Just like ME. If that makes sense. Like a me who is naturally just more motivated and a little more focused but without any intense feelings. It reminds me more of my Prozac after the peak where it’s just there working in the background. And I don’t get a crash at all on Vyvanse, it’s very natural. My psychiatrist said the med is a good match for me and is working exactly as it should overall and said we can continue to monitor the wired thing but overall she is happy with my meds. I have ocd and adhd for reference.

She said the meds are a tool like gasoline in a car and I’m still the driver and taking a pill for focus and motivation without working on other executive functioning skills can backfire. She thinks I’m just not used to feeling serious and boundaries lol. I do agree with her in a lot of ways.

But the physical feeling I’m referring to, like a whoa I’m wired, again not a HIGH but I really don’t know how else to explain it like I notice it, I don’t want. I just wanna be me. So my question is: COULD my daily Alani be making this worse?! I drink an Alani every morning and iced coffee and Diet Coke throughout the day. I used to self medicate with caffeine for sure so maybe I can cut back even more?

I’ve been on my current meds for about 3 years and overall it’s been great. My Prozac ive actually been on for like 8 years minus a 10 month gap when I tried to be med free. Spoiler, didn’t work lol. Anyway…. In the past I had been on adderall off and on but wasn’t consistent with it so when I decided to get back on stims, we started with adderall and I noticed it wasn’t playing nice with the SSRI when taking consistently. So we switched to Vyvanse 3 years ago and I haven’t looked back. Just really questioning I guess this wired thing.

Thank you!!

Hi friends, so I have adhd and OCD and take Prozac and Vyvanse. The combo is really good for me overall. However, I notice lately I might be depending too much on my Vyvanse. I do not get a “high,” but I do get more motivated you know? It’s so hard to explain because I have such all or nothing thinking. Like for me, idk if it’s addiction or what, but I struggle with finding limits. But it’s easy for me to quit once I decide. So that’s where idk if it’s addiction. Like I quit alcohol cold turkey at 25. (32 now). I quit weed when I couldn’t find healthy limits too.

I honestly think for me, I’m addicted to motivation and control more than the med itself. I spent my entire life lacking motivation and finally got it when I started meds a few years ago. I chose not to be medicated most of my life cause I’m stubborn but anyway lol….

So do I get a high in the same way one does from something like weed? Nope. But I do love feeling more motivated and find myself obsessive about my medication. please don’t attack me or say I don’t have adhd because I’m being vulnerable and I’ve seen other posts where people are so harsh to anyone struggling with their meds ):

I just feel so alone.

I don’t abuse my med but I do obsess. I wake up and go okay, the effects should hit in an hour or 2. I guess because I don’t really feel it but yeah. Then I’ll be like okay when will it wear off etc etc. my therapist doesn’t think it’s addiction but me hyper focusing on the med too much but I also hate that I’m this obsessive and feel like while it helps me live, it’s also stealing my focus ironically on the med itself.

And one more thing, I do still feel like myself mostly on Vyvanse. But it does make me feel more…. Serious? Like less carefree and joyful. Not depressed but more go mode. Which I need sometimes but also I hate that sometimes.

Anyway, would really appreciate any thoughts. Thanks!!