Accepting it
Before I start, this is a throwaway account. Don't intend on sticking around cause none of this matters to anyone. Especially to myself.
I've been alone my entire life. Never had friends or anyone to talk to. The only social interaction I can get is online due to circumstances in my life. Anywhere I've gone I've been hated for no reason except the reason that I exist. People hate me before they even meet me. They judge because I guess it's easier to judge someone and hate them than it is to try to get to know them and understand them. When people say they're alone, they're not. They don't understand what it's like to really be alone, not have anyone to talk to, and nobody to spend time with. People who say they're alone have friends and others to talk to. I don't and never will. I've tried too many times to talk to people. Only to get ignored and treated like trash for trying to be nice to others. It's not fair that everyone else can have friends and people to talk to but I can't. That's the only thing I'll never be allowed to have in this life. I've been told that I'm a "headache" and "worthless" by people in the past. Guess that's all I am. I've accepted that I'll never have anyone to talk to, friends, a 'life' etc. It is what it is. Nothing will change and things will be the same until I die. Already flirting with death so hopefully that comes soon. Anyways, thanks for reading this, I guess. Bye now.