Extreme emotions (after achieving a long-term goal?)
Hi all,
Long story short, I was recently accepted into a PhD program (fully funded, with my dream advisor, and I get to research exactly what I want)! This is a goal I have been working towards for many, many years, giving up my weekends to conduct research and obtain my master's degree in order to gain acceptance to a PhD program.
However, even though I feel like I should be celebrating, I find myself fluctuating between very extreme emotions instead. I will feel happy and calm one moment, then extremely angry, irritable, overwhelmed, or weepy the next. I've even had moments where I screamed myself hoarse because my emotions were so extreme. I've also had crying fits, and my insomnia has also worsened.
I am very confused by all of this, and can't sort out why I am feeling so many different emotions. It's starting to affect my relationships, and I also feel guilty/distressed for expressing myself (in rather extreme ways) to those I'm close to.
Any advice you could offer would be welcome!