Well, it’s been a week. After all the chaos with him and police being involved (they aren’t anymore), we officially are done since last Thursday. It’s been so hard to not text him. And the last time he has tried to contact me was this Monday. He called and I ignored him. Basically asked me to come to his house literally after telling the police he doesn’t want me there. He knows what he’s doing by sending this,
“I know your heart drops everytime I text, wanting me to text you again and again”..
that was such a controlling message. He has been mentally playing with my mind all these 9 months. Im trying so hard to resist the urge of texting. He doesn’t deserve me or access to me ever again. He hurt me so much. I lost motivation in taking care of my hygiene and late on college work.
The emotional, physical, and mental control was a lot. I’m trying. Today I officially completed one class and onto my last one. Starting today I’m going to take care of my health more. I’m going to therapy tomorrow and I hope this is the beginning of a better me.