My ex [19F] and I [19M] have been close friends for 2 years. She blocked me right after I helped her through a breakdown.
So this is my story. It all starts in the mid of 2022. I was 15 at that time and I had joined an institute for preparation of jee. It was a local one so there weren't many students,infact I was the first in my batch. The second one to join was a girl. At first I didn't even talk to her, but we slowly hit it off and after a month, we entered a relationship. This was my first time being in a relationship. She had been in a few before, but I didn't care about that.She was the most perfect girl.We used to tell each other EVERYTHING and our bond was built on total trust. Fast forward to 2024 and we were still the same as earlier.
Now it was time for my jee exams and her neet exams. Also the classes ended and with the pressure from the exams,we now met much less than before. So after both of our exams had ended, meeting at institute was over. So after march we barely met . Now I was 17 and she was 18.Also at that time I got really busy with researching about college and stuff and due to this ,we also texted alot less but this wasn't a problem until after a few months I started to feel different, I felt like this distance had somehow changed my feeling. I felt like I didn't love her the way I used to but she still was giving her absolute best to me and opening her heart out. This made me feel really guilty. I didnt tell her about this. I thought maybe meeting her would fix this. I met up with her and we went on a date . But at the end of the day ,I still felt that it just didn't feel the same to me and seeing her that day and how she acted around me and how much she loved me only made me feel worse about myself. I couldn't bring myself to break up and our 2 year anniversary was coming up and I knew I couldn't celebrate it feeling like this, so I finally gathered the courage to break up with her in mid 2024.
The breakup was very hard on her because we were so interdependent. Back then, there was a cycle of her blocking and unblocking me. She used to talk to me and rant about the breakup and even about me to me(ik it sounds weird).I stuck around because I still felt guilty and neither of us had anyone else to talk to. Then this cycle of block and unblock happened a few more times until finally she just kept me unblocked. We had started talking as friends. She had taken a drop year for neet. Over the course of 2025 our frequency of talking varied sometimes we talked alot but sometimes very less. Now at the end of 2025 she was going to a college and we even met once.We were both very awkward with each other.Its 2026 now and we still talk. Recently we started talking alot more. At this point, we had made it clear that we will not be coming into a relationship again. We started coming closer, atleast that's what I felt. We did phone calls and stuff and acted as normal close friends. I had a soft spot for her. After the break up, for a lot of time I thought I still liked her and maybe that was true but over time I've come to accept that as my soft spot for her. I do regret breaking up but I've come to accept that as well.I noticed how she had been giving me less attention and I'm totally fine with it. So recently when I asked her to call me she said she will after her exams.
So around 4 days ago.she called me and she was having a break down.She told me her close friend had proposed to her and that she didn't know what to do.I talked to her,calmed her down and after that we talked about alot of other stuff. So this same thing has happened more than once. She had trouble so she called me even though she refused earlier. I want to be clear that we didn't just talk when there was drama. We were normal close friends who called each other regularly, even when things were fine.Basically when she doesn't wanna talk to anyone,she talks to me. I'm still her comfort zone.
But this time it was regarding a boy. After talking to her. What I gathered was she isn't sure whether she likes him but she doesn't want a relationship for sure.
But all of this didn't matter to me cause well we were just friends.yea..
At the night of the day she called me. She blocked me from everywhere my phone number,Insta,snap,telegram.It kinda affected me when she blocked me but after a few hours I was okay. I'm over it.
I don't know what to do moving forward. I think she'll unblock me soon like she used to in the past,she is always the one who comes back to me first but what should I do? Should this friendship continue or not.
Tl;dr:My ex and I have been close friends for 2 years since our breakup. She blocked me everywhere right after I helped her through a breakdown about another guy proposing to her. She is the one who usually reaches out first after blocking, so I'm wondering if I should keep this friendship going or finally move on.