I suffered sexual abuse
It's been a long time since this happened, but it's something I can't forget. I was at a party with some friends and drank a lot. I met someone there and started flirting with him, but to be honest, I don't remember his face.
Afterwards, they decided to leave the party and go to a house, my friend and I went with them. I remember kissing him while everyone was in another world, until he stood me up and took me to a room I didn't want to go to. He closed the door and started kissing me while I tried to push him away.
In my mind I thought it was my fault for having drunk so I kept kissing him until he threw me onto the bed and started undressing me. I didn't want to because I didn't know him and I'm not like that. While he was pulling down my shorts, I pulled them up and told him no. He just kept saying that I did want to and that I should just let myself go.
In the end, I let him have his way with me, and I blamed myself a lot for being in that situation. Then, a friend of his tried to sleep with me too (to have a threesome), and I refused, and the guy understood. In the end, I got myself together, he said goodbye, and left me there. I don't remember his name or what he looked like.
I was afraid I might have had an ets or be pregnant, but everything came back negative. It was a huge irresponsibility on my part, and for a long time I blamed myself and cried. At some point I will tell it without fear🐨❤️🩹