a rant about my family choosing UP
Its so annoying, I don't want to brag but my parents make six figures per month each and they made me study in UP. The burgis issue in UP has been all over my social media especially if its UPCAT season, I don't want to be there when I can study somewhere else like Ateneo, my dream school. I'm privileged, my family is rich, i came from a private school, we can afford a private university. We do things most people can't. I applied to the big 4 and got in all of them, I wanted to choose ADMU but they told me if I chose any other school than UP, they would not support me financially or pay my tuition and that actually scared me because they said it so seriously. I wished I didnt apply in UP and take the UPCAT, i feel like they wouldve let it slide. They knew Ateneo has been my dream school but I dont know whats going on in their head. Heck, I'm to conyo for UP, I studied Filipino but it doesnt apply to the daily conversations I experience. I dont even fucking know anymore because they made sure I chose UP, they made sure to be there when I was confirming UP while crying. I'm even too ashamed to tell my friends I'm in UP, especially when I kept telling them that we'll see each other in ADMU. I love my parents, i'm an only child and they do everything for me but I just cant help but be mad at them for this. I dont want to say hate because its a strong word. I wished I spoke up more before I chose UP, I really wanted ADMU but I'm too scared they might snap at me because they rarely do, I rarely get them mad. I don't know why they want me to go to UP, they came from private universities themselves. Sorry if this seems scattered, i just felt like ranting this out. (This was in the other up reddit last night but it recently got removed and it said to post it here instead)
But I would like to ask here:
How can I be open-minded?
I get uncomfortable when people talk to me about money struggles.. maybe its also because I'm shocked that they're comfortable on talking to me about it but how can I stop that?
How can I stay humble and not be a 'show-off'?
I know that a lot of people will question me, judge me and I'm prepared for that but I also don't want it to affect me a lot and get to my head but I also don't want to just brush it off and ignore the problem. I want to enjoy my college life even though I'm not where I want to be.