u/EmotionalWishbone528

I’m feeling a lot of anger which isn’t something I expected to feel. My Husband is in Basic right now, and I feel stupid for thinking about him this much. We knew what this journey would entail but I didn’t know what it would feel like. I’m so angry that this is affecting my abilities at work. I know deep down this is his dream, and I would never want to take that from him. Which is why I won’t be telling him how much this hurts me, at least not right now. My heart is physically in pain. I cry multiple times a day. I’m so angry at myself for thinking there was enough justification for the journey for it to not hurt. And I know all of the ways to keep my mind off of it. My own career, my own friends, my own hobbies. I know these things will make it better but I can’t even pour into those because of the emotional reaction i’m having. I guess I just need someone to tell me it gets better, or that it was worth it. That you’re now happy with your husband and live a semi-happy life.

I’m seriously thinking about my career trajectory as I plan on following my husband when he gets stationed somewhere (currently in basic). I currently work for the government but am really unhappy in my position and would love to do something related to finance or administration. I think the government might be the best place for me considering all the benefits and the mission purpose, but I can no longer stick it out in the position that i’m in. For background I have a degree in Data Science and i’m lucky to have gotten into gov before the freeze however I feel very stuck in this position now and don’t know the likelihood of me getting another gov job. I also don’t know anyone in the military community so I would love to hear if anyone relates to me in any way or just has general advice:)