Married someone l knew was wrong for me because of family pressure and now I hate my life
I 30 year-old female was married to my current husband for 7 years. It was an arranged marriage due to cultural aspects.
There’s an engagement phase where we get to know each other before we actually move in together, mind you even in this phase we are considered a married couple in the eyes of the law.
Since the beginning I noticed that we are completely different people and we’re not compatible at all on any level, emotionally, intellectually, the way we see life, we have nothing in common, in my eyes I can’t even be friends with this guy! I dreaded his visits because we had nothing to talk about!
I told my parents this and they were angry and reactive and the fact that I didn’t mention a clear “flaw” they didn’t accept my decision of leaving him. I finally gave in due to pressure and lack of options.
Now after 7 years, nothing has changed, I still dream of divorce I still blame my parents and myself for not being strong enough to end this before it became more complicated.
One thing I should mention, my husband is very loving and a great father, he is a family man and cares a lot about us.
But that didn’t compensate for the gap between us. We can’t even talk to each other and whenever we do we always fight because he has a really bad temper.
From outside my life seems perfect and peaceful, but since the time I got married I became depressed and I couldn’t and still can’t enjoy anything in life, it feels like my life has ended 7 years ago.
Does anyone have a similar experience?