can a halal marriage come from this?
assalamualikum.
i never would've posted anything online lol, but i think i need advice/support.
i met someone and i believed him to be my naseeb. i know it sounds irrational, but wallah, i have never felt as connected to a person as i did with him. we discussed everything we could have for the purpose of marriage and our relationship started with that intent. we discussed taking a break, as we were certain about the other person, and then involving our families to ensure we would not fall into haram. however, we did.
we cut it off for the sake of Allah and with an understanding, that if it is meant to be, it will be. as with true repentance, comes hating the sin and feeling remorse, resolving to not do it again, and ceasing it completely. so we've cut contact.
i did and do feel immense guilt about what has transpired and am grateful to Allah, that He has called me back. albeit, my heart teeters between peace for obeying Allah and uncertainty, as i do wish i could marry him in the future but i have no guarantee of that. i suppose, it would be the same if we continued in haram, there would be no guarantee of marriage and only a guarantee of Allah's displeasure.
what i am asking is, is it still possible that Allah reunites us in marriage? or would you say to, when i am ready to start looking again, start fresh with new prospects? has anyone been in a similar situation, where they ended things fisbillah and then ended up marrying that person? idk, i just really wish i could marry him but idk if that is possible at this time.