I am confused if I may possibly be aromantic or if it’s my autism and I’m a late bloomer
I’m 17F, I’ve never felt attracted to someone sexually or romantically, I know I can have sexually feelings and the desire for sex but never felt sexually attracted to someone before, I am autistic as well and ive talked to other autistic people and they have mentioned that some autistic people don’t feel any attraction until their 20’s or later in life, I am truly hoping this is the case because I am very stressed about this. I understand the possibility of me being ace aromantic or aro ace but I’m truly hoping that’s not the case, I don’t have anything against people who are aromantic or ace etc I just hope I’m not because I truly want a relationship, an actual romantic relationship that includes sex as well, I just have never felt attracted to someone in the classic heart beating, palms sweating, nervous kind of way, and whenever I would get into a relationship and I thought I liked the person (I didn’t) after a couple of days I would get this feeling of “I need out immediately.” I’m scared I’m gonna die alone, I really really want a relationship but the fact that I’ve never felt anything for anyone before scares me. I know that you can be happy without a romantic relationship but I really want one, I want to experience that and experience feeling that love for someone and someone loving me that way. Im just very scared I’m gonna die alone and never have experienced love or have someone love me.