Feel like I’m losing my mind
Hi All!
My psychiatrist recently agreed that I very likely have PMDD. After years of SSRIs working relatively well on my OCD / health anxiety, the last two years have been a bit tumultuous at best. It started after I had my third kid. I was miserably anxious while breast feeding. When I stopped last August, it was like a fog lifted. Unfortunately, I soon after noticed a pattern of worsening anxiety in the 5 or so days leading up to my period, and then during.
I am not going to go into reassurance seeking details, but long story short I have convinced myself I am having seizures and that the root cause is a brain tumor, and it is ruining my life. For a while the anxiety was maintained mostly for 1.5 weeks around my period, but now I feel like it’s taking me longer to get back to baseline, and then my luteal phase hits, and we start all over again.
My primary physician saw me for a neuro eval, and is confident I am fine and just dealing with some physical manifestations of anxiety. She asked if I considered birth control, but I’m not a candidate for anything with estrogen because I’ve had some superficial blot clots during pregnancy. I did make an appointment with my OB/GYN to discuss anyway.
I don’t know what I’m doing here beyond just typing it out and hoping that a rant alone might help me. I’m just tired of feeling this way.