I am the invisible woman
I have many good qualities, people recognize and fawn over them for a while, and yet I find myself constantly cast aside in favor of others. I have always felt 'looked over', but it's reaching the point now where I feel (literally) invisible, and it's messing with my brain. For some reason, I have never been anyone's top priority. I have never been 'yearned' for, and I am stuck encouraging others who have more favorable life circumstances. The people I've tried to connect with have come from all sorts of walks of life (and not many with CPTSD); they start out drawn to me because I'm kind and sweet and funny (and apparently, highly conventionally attractive even if I can't see it myself - I have to throw that in there for people who think it might be related to looks because sadly some people are like that) and we can have deep discussions, and they say to me "Hey you're amazing, I've never met anyone like you before", and we have what feels like a great start to a connection (this phase lasts maybe a couple of months) but I don't know what happens after that... I try to check in on them, and they seem to... not see me as a human? I could text them "Hey, I've just been hit by a car" and they won't open my message for 6 business days, then when they do, they go "Oh $&#@! Sorry, if I'd known I would've opened your message." (That's the point, you open them to find out!) then they'll start ranting about what's going on in their lives, complaining about their friends not being supportive enough (yes this is close to an actual interaction I've had). My first partner immediately married the woman he cheated on me with. People are very comfortable to not have me in their lives anymore, potentially forever. To have that constant invalidation of one's existence is something I can't deal with anymore, I'm wondering if anyone else has had to deal with the same. Can people 'sniff out' CPTSD? Is it a repellent?