Guilt towards my ex
Hi, me (F20) and my ex boyfriend (M21)
dated for a 6 months last year before we got in the argument stage (not super bad tho). He broke up with me one day.
We didn’t talk for 5 months and in those 5 months i hooked up with 2 people. I was heartbroken, he was my first everything. it’s not an excuse, but i was lost and confused.
After the 5 months, we started talking again. He told me he hasn’t talked or gotten with anyone in the 5months (which i believe). We’ve been seeing each other again, and talking about getting back together. I can’t seem to make the guilt go away that i did those things behind his back. I know if i told him id lose him.
I don’t talk to any of the people ive hu with, dont even have them on socials. I dont think about them in anyway but a mistake. Idk it feels like i cheated on him, even though i would never. It’s hard to not think about it when we’re intimate, or just doing something that bonds us. Does anyone have any advice on how i can feel less guilty? Or idk am i a bad person?