u/Empty_Bother6108

I absolutely fucking love my therapist. I’ve been with him for three years and he’s got me through a lot of hard times. He’s the one that discovered my switching as it showed up for the first time a few months ago. As things are progressing he’s not confident he’s the right provider because of his lack of experience in this area, he doesn’t want to make a mistake and make things worse.

Logically I get it, and I know how much he cares, but it feels like I’m being fired for being too much. We’re looking at Mt. Sinai right now for a potential referral but who knows if it’ll happen.

I’m just so down and at a loss

I feel like I’m losing my mind. Early in diagnosis, it started being considered a few months ago when
I started having periods of totally different personalities and identities showing up.

It’s been a rough go of it overall, but the worst part is one of my identities fucking hates me. Like told our best friend she’s going to kill me, carved her name in my arm, absolutely batshit things.

I’m not innocent, I have made it worse by hearing her demands for not self harming and didn’t take them seriously because she was quiet and just did what I wanted. Now she hates me and can’t stop going on about how she’s going to figure out how to be front and eliminate the rest of us. If that’s doesn’t work she’s open to just offing us as a whole.

How the fuck does one navigate this? How do I repair a relationship when the communication is muggy at best? I feel awful and also terrified. I know she’s just hurt but yall idk how to do this.