u/Emryz-2000

Hello so I am playing as Japan, I took korea and vietnam before doing the meiji restauration, have taken johore and brunei and went to war with mexico and the usa to take California Oregon and Nevada, its 1858 and I am planning on going against the dutch and english for indonesia and australia respectectibly. My thing is... when should I just forget infamy? as Japan I usually wait until I have a huge navy of Ironclads and basically just fence off anyone before they even get to land but idk what are the parameter usually?

Hey there!

So I’m playing with Japan and I want to do a man of the high castle type game. It’s 1850 and i took Korea and Vietnam before becoming civilized and also took Johore afterwards.

I have taken California and Arizona now from Mexico. In previous games I have been able to beat the us in war but they only become stronger as time passes, I usually support the south and intervene on their side but that doesn’t do much. So do any of you have any idea?

I know there is an event with the Statue of Liberty that gives the us a big bonus for immigrants, if I take newyork before they get it does it never happen?

I’m open to any ideas or suggestions.
Thanks :)

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